It sure seems like I'm always blabbering about what God shows me and what God tells me. And I often feel like I'm left looking sheepish and borderline crazy struggling to provide an explanation for why things suddenly turned in the other direction. Many times I've gotten things wrong. Terribly, terribly wrong. I've cried wolf (truly believing it was an actual wolf) more times than I'm comfortable admitting. Not because I'm stupid, or naive or a liar. But because sometimes I'm just wrong! Being wrong doesn't make me foolish or unstable or irresponsible or an idiot. It just makes me human. It happens. Even to those of us who are faithfully and passionately following the will of Jesus...we get it wrong too. I feel it's incredibly important as a Christian to be able to say that. That we often miss the mark too. And it's okay. It doesn't make us bad Christians. I honestly think my biggest problem is that I'm so expectant, so passionate about all the desires stirring in my heart...that I get impatient and run ahead and start filling in all the blanks with my own overactive imagination. Unfortunately, my imagination doesn't have all the facts, can't see all the players or even understand the game at times.
Keeping all the above in mind, I'm about to embark on a brand new adventure. I strongly feel that God is calling me to St. Louis Missouri, and has been for about 2 years now (that story shall be told soon!).Could I be wrong? It's possile. But my heart is in the right place, my eyes are fixed on the will of God and I have unshakable faith that all things will work together for my good (Romans 8:28). If I get it wrong, I get it wrong. At least I wasn't afraid to step out and do it. If I tumble and skin my knees, bust my nose and black both my eyes, it surely won't be the first...or the last time. I'm a big girl, I can handle it. And I have God on my side, with Him I can do ANYTHING (Matthew 19:26)!
